i deserve better and yet (Taylor)

She could feel his pain and she felt bad for that but she had to stand her ground because if she did not Taylor would never mature seriously and stay that way. "No need to come back later I was just changing," she said as she stepped behind a shade so that she could talk to him but he would not be tempted by her nudity as she changed. "I mean I would hope that we can talk and just be chill about the children, about us but I can feel how much it's hurting you so if you can not I get that."

She felt the hurt the worse at night which only made her wonder if he had been crying and not sleeping well as she came out in her pants and tee shirt as she looked for her shoes. "Taylor and what about our vows exactly?" she said as she took a seat next to him now as she listened to him. "I think that is only natural anyway," she said. "I do like that place," she said to him. "I can come if you want me too it might do the girls some good yes," she said. "I will send Carter a thank you." It sure did seem like Carter was the only person trying to make them work out as a couple that was refreshing. "Taylor, l don't want the divorce not really but I do think that before it's final we do need time on the island for you to make sure that this is WHAT YOU WANT. WHAT YOU REALLY WANT."

She was tired of sacrificing happiness. "I find out the gender soon, and that is going to sway my decision heavily on how much time I am willing to give you during our time apart. Not in a mean way but I wanted a boy and we ended up with two girls and you got a boy with everyone but me. I guess I thought it was fate's way of telling me you were good with girls and that's what you needed, but a boy would tell me that you were really ready for me raising your other son among all of your kids."

Dr. Taylor Quinzell

"I know Taylor, I can feel how nervous you are, yet how excited you are too. It's the advantage of having one of your hearts," she said. "I am trying to navitage your feelings around everyone that you are involved with romantically so I can help you so you can use your words less," she said as she had the urge to touch him but did not. "Also I'm going to hire a baby sitter, we're going to do something else."

She took a minute. "You do want to go right?" she said as she went and got the babies and called a baby sitter. "Look I have a tracking app on my phone so nothing is going to happen to the babies. "I was thinking I could either take you down to the brothel or if you are more comfortable and want to stay here, we can do it here." She shrugged. "You never took me on a date so the only way I'm getting any date is if I take you on a date."

Dr. Taylor Quinzell

"So we are staying in?" she asked. "Going to be a little weird but easier I guess." Could they even spend time without wanting to yell and hurt the other one? Just something else that she had not thought about and now she was as she took a second. "So feed the girls and then what?"

Did they need this yes, did she want to do it, no. "Get to know one another like really know one another?" she asked him.

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"I can not imagine you in that but at the same time it truly does fit," she said as she looked over their kids. They did have chemistry to say the least but they, well he was right. That whole getting to know you part had skipped over all of their dealings and that was never good. "Well the first time I thought i was in love i was just blown away and the second time," she paused. "I am currently sitting here fighting for the second time. That is how I know I have changed and not just because of the kids."

Dr. Taylor Quinzell

Where was this raw and honest version of Taylor when she doubted everything? When she didn't think that space but closeness was the answer and now? She could not fold if she did, it would do them no good. She didn't want them all over each other in fits of passion and then angry and yelling, she simply wanted them to be them. Her feeling his heart beat inside of her was also a factor that she had not counted on. "Excuse me a second I think my phone is ringing," she said as she watched him turn blue and excused herself.

"Fuck," she said as she walked into her room and crawled into her closet. "I've almost got my phone Taylor," she yelled as she turned her back against her closet and locked the door. "Do not give in to him, do not give in to him." She could not be like all of his other girlfriends and just let him get away with it because he would not stick to being the best version of himself but she could not hide either but she still took her two minutes before coming back out.

She did not, her intentions were never to hurt him but she had a lot of anger. At the situation, at him because of moments like this. She stood in the corner as her body turned blue as she spoke to him. "You have to let me be mad at you. I don't want to be mad at you, but you have to be let me be mad at you. Do something to allow me to be mad at you, not something that makes me want to forgive you. We need to work through my anger at you, so say something to piss me off."

Dr. Taylor Quinzell

She looked at him as he spoke. "Nothing to notice," she said. Was he really back on this? She smiled a little and she shook her head. "No idea what you are talking about Taylor." She watched him and the lean and the hug. "Careful please," she said. A woman who plays for keeps? "You are funny, I never knew that."

"Love can be overwhelming that much I do agree on and I didn't do it at the hospital, I finished it at the hospital. Baby I love you but the hurt, the need to keep you with me has nothing to with the wish cookie and everything to do with our child creation. Also please stop making it sound like voodoo, I don't do that darkness. All I did was tie us together. Your soul will always be connected to me. Since I couldn't get you to keep it in your pants, I went elsewhere when it came to you Taylor."

The fact that he knew though and still was here. "I told you have all the babies you want but when YOU WANT to be here as you do now, you will be. I got tired of trying to capture the horse and so while the horse is wild and out in the field, his wants will always win out. If that makes me playing for keeps, then yes I suppose you do love me."

"What I didn't count on was you giving me your heart so willingly, so we will navigate this road of kids and mothers as we need, but home will always call to you. We don't need to be married for it to exist. Should we work through and not get a divorce, it will get stronger and be unbreakable. You see Taylor what happens to us is on you, not me."

Dr. Taylor Quinzell