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Jul 20, 2024 5:43:30 GMT -5
Post by Hunter Jaxon-Quinzell on Jul 20, 2024 5:43:30 GMT -5
"Okay and yes sure just whenever you are ready to invite them." Of course but he did not mind as he pulled the crystal out of her back and watched it harden. That caught his interest. "Ooh it jeweled over." He had not expected that but then she was looking at him. "I don't guess you would." He shook his head. "No no that is mine." He still had sharing issues as he grabbed it and let her hands go. He threw the jump rope across his shoulder and was thinking as he spoke. His rope was precious to him and while that might not make sense it was almost as if it was sacred. "Let's see," he said as he was still going through the process of wondering what it meant if anything to share his rope. "Okay let me see your hands," he said. It was true that they had trusted a lot but this was his stuff which made it feel different. Daphne Quinzell-Jaxon
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Daphne Quinzell-Jaxon
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Jul 20, 2024 7:54:05 GMT -5
Post by Daphne Quinzell-Jaxon on Jul 20, 2024 7:54:05 GMT -5
She did not truly know if it meant that there was time for sharing but she knew that sometimes you had to let things happen which was still something she too was learning. She shook her head when he started with his no but then he seemed to be thinking and she found that to be okay. She turned her hands towards him. "Not going to lie I figured that you'd paint one on but this is way better." She held her hands out. "So what's it sound like, has the melody changed any when you hear it?" Hunter Jaxon-Quinzell
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Jul 20, 2024 11:11:57 GMT -5
Post by Hunter Jaxon-Quinzell on Jul 20, 2024 11:11:57 GMT -5
It was a bit hard for him to continue to concentrate when she spoke but he was focusing none the less as he undid his jump rope and let out a sigh. First times were scary and he had never been without his rope since coming through to this time. "It's like the tacos Daphne sometimes it's loud, full of passion and heartache and other times it's soft so much that you can fall into it. I tried for years to push through, time and time again to just accept it and then I found it was better to just let it play and not speak a word. People perceive you as crazy when you do and that was the last thing I wanted but sitting on it, not talking about it turned to control and anger. So I started finding ways to deal with that." "Every ounce of who I am and what I want to be tied up in rope Daphne because rope is strong, bendable, colorful all in all it's own art so you see you, what you do, draws me to you. Hard to know when to go on a feeling and when to stop when you start to crave it, when you taste it and you just want it to linger so like the tacos you enjoy it while you can. You hold on to the joys and the craziness seems so much less but you also realize when you think about it you don't deserve it so you are bound to watch it and enjoy it but you never get too caught up in it because eventually you learn to understand that the rope is going to break and that you will fall and falling hurts." His emotions were about to be all over the place and he hated that but you had to fall. "However no matter how much you fall you keep yourself together because you learn that the magic is armor and that as long as you have armor you can fall and fall and heal." He could feel his tears coming down his face but he did not focus on that he simply kept his focus on his jump rope strings by now honestly. He kept the bindings delicate and loose so she would not hurt as they sat still under the light. "Then one day, you find that you're healing is a road and that your road is painted and curved by not yourself but someone else. You find that maybe you build the castle because it helps, you sit in the basement because it is the only place that you don't feel like you need such armor and you find that at the end of the day you can let go little by little and that is new to you but even just a little difference is enough hope so you take the only thing that has seen you at your lowest down to the basement and you sit not because you want to keep them from the world, no Daphne not at all but because you know that they remember you at the end of the day." His growth was astounding in some ways and just as painful in others as he moved himself up under her tied hands and put his head on her chest. His tears fell right over her heart but he could not help it, sometimes the magic had a mind of it's own. "The rope will fall off whenever you want it too, I guess that's the good part of magic even in despair it knows what we are feeling." Daphne Quinzell-Jaxon
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Jul 21, 2024 10:37:35 GMT -5
Post by Daphne Quinzell-Jaxon on Jul 21, 2024 10:37:35 GMT -5
She was trying to find the words while she listened but there were none as he explained why and what it meant she found that touching and not just it did not feel like he was saying it to say it but had meant it as she watched him move closer to her with her hands now tied and around his neck. She also felt her heart slowly start to piece itself back together. "Okay this is a lot of emotion but this is also good." She was not ready for such a pour of emotion but she did want to see where this went. "Hey you are safe here and everything is good here." She did feel like they were even better. "I will help you through the therapy and so will Madison and Mallory and then you don't, you won't have all this inside your head to feel like you need to deal with on your own because no one should." She felt more positive about it now. "You cheated by the way, with my heart," she said as she shook her head. "I get why though." As much as she did not want to admit it he was right, they both needed therapy. "I am not going to shock your or anything like that because I don't believe in physical like that but maybe we can do something with my art and just have Madison and Mallory here to observe for the times we fall asleep. I could also put cameras in so they can check a feed from time to time too maybe." She did not want to intrude on their life too much because they did have things going on. Still as she talked she could feel her hold on Hunter getting tighter as her heart was still pulling itself together. "I mean I know you are into a lot of stuff I am not but even I draw the line at shocks." Hunter Jaxon-Quinzell
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Jul 21, 2024 17:10:14 GMT -5
Post by Hunter Jaxon-Quinzell on Jul 21, 2024 17:10:14 GMT -5
"I prefer to keep them bottled in," he said but they were out in a way now and nothing he could do about that. He was comfortable though which he thought was good overall. "I was just trying to ease up the pain was all," he said but he did not move. "I'm not against being shocked at all." This kid. "If you don't want to be shocked I can respect that and yes cameras are good." As far as he knew he did not have any sleep walking issues so cameras might be a good thing but he did not know. "You know I can feel the small pitter of excitement that you keep hiding when I speak about things. Daphne you don't have to hide it from me as a matter of fact I am the last person that you should keep it from but then again I can respect privacy, something that everyone deserves. Telling you though from experience, nothing is going to feel more comforting for you than flutter of butterfly wings." Where that was up to her to be honest. Daphne Quinzell-Jaxon
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Jul 22, 2024 7:41:18 GMT -5
Post by Daphne Quinzell-Jaxon on Jul 22, 2024 7:41:18 GMT -5
"Pain is not love" she said honestly. "I mean often the two can be seen as being the same thing but they truly are not and yes I know which is why I don't talk about it. I want us to be able to communicate but it does not necessarily mean that we have to speak. I get that it seems how you were raised communication is important but if that communication is yelling that is not important, that is bad." She shrugged. "I'm starting to care less and less about being private which might be good or bad I guess that is something that time will tell." Hunter Jaxon-Quinzell
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Jul 22, 2024 13:46:51 GMT -5
Post by Hunter Jaxon-Quinzell on Jul 22, 2024 13:46:51 GMT -5
He turned his head trying to make sure that he understood what she was saying. "Okay so you are changing too, that is not bad." If she was accepting of it then he would be accepting of it safe though, well he was still working on that but he could easily see where she was coming from. "I do feel safer here." It was strange to feel as safe as he did after time of not but he was also actually just learning to go with things as they were presented to him. Sometime later it turned out that had been a good idea as he looked for his shirt. He noticed paint and butterfly silohuttes ad he did find his shirt. Then he noticed Daphne was gone out the basement. "Naturally," he said as he sighed. Daphne Quinzell-Jaxon
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Jul 22, 2024 20:12:20 GMT -5
Post by Daphne Quinzell-Jaxon on Jul 22, 2024 20:12:20 GMT -5
Being with Hunter was well magical even if sore but she had woke after and needed food. She really did want to push this through with therapy but she now knew she had to start smalll so she would start with the cameras after this and then let Madison and Mallory know about the cameras and set up a time that was good for them. She made her way down with her canvas and colors. "I had to get up and check on the children," she said. "I did set up a taco bar in the corner of this basement but it comes with rules if you want to listen." Hunter Jaxon-Quinzell
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Jul 23, 2024 5:51:28 GMT -5
Post by Hunter Jaxon-Quinzell on Jul 23, 2024 5:51:28 GMT -5
"Thanks," he said as he took a seat in the corner and began to fix his tacos. "I'm listening," he said but he was still fixing tacos. He honestly needed food because tacos were life. "I don't know what kind of rules you could possibly have for tacos unless you are one of those people who like your toppings in a certain order." Daphne Quinzell-Jaxon
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Jul 23, 2024 7:47:52 GMT -5
Post by Daphne Quinzell-Jaxon on Jul 23, 2024 7:47:52 GMT -5
Never Never Never did he listen. She shook her head as she thought about how to say this. She went and took a seat in front of him and slapped his hands. "Listen to me," she said as she looked at him. "You can have as many tacos as you want but we are going to try them without the sour cream. It's just to see if you can take a little change and it is not a big one either so you see it is baby steps." Hunter Jaxon-Quinzell
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Jul 23, 2024 8:35:43 GMT -5
Post by Hunter Jaxon-Quinzell on Jul 23, 2024 8:35:43 GMT -5
He thought about this and he shook his head no. "Can't do that Daph otherwise you just want me to eat wet food with no taste. Putting the sour cream on it gives it an extra hint of flavor that is not just spices," he said as he got up but at least he did not toss her taco bar like he had originally thought. "I'd rather starve before eating tacos like that." He rolled his eyes because he was upset. He was hungry though forever hungry really. "How about we exchange the tacos out for something else if I am going to have to eat anything without something on it, I would much rather have apples." Daphne Quinzell-Jaxon
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Jul 23, 2024 8:41:42 GMT -5
Post by Daphne Quinzell-Jaxon on Jul 23, 2024 8:41:42 GMT -5
She looked at him. "Where am I going to get apples from Hunter? It's like three days before I can do my digital grocery delivery and even then it's pushing it towards the things that the children need." Why must he be so difficult. "You tell me where to get some apples and I will gladly get you some apples." She was true to her word for the most part as she looked at him. "I worked so hard on that taco bar too," she said as she shook her head. "Oh well I guess we can always try that next time when you have had a little more therapy." Hunter Jaxon-Quinzell
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Jul 23, 2024 8:44:44 GMT -5
Post by Hunter Jaxon-Quinzell on Jul 23, 2024 8:44:44 GMT -5
"I know and it is very pretty," he said as he hung his head down. "I didn't mean to upset you," he said as he moved closer to her. "I do know a place where we can get some apples though," he said as he lifted his head up and spoke quietly. "I just need you to wish to go to an orchard." TBC! Daphne Quinzell-JaxonAdmin
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